So this is my 4th Thanksgiving. My 4th Thanksgiving without my grandma. They say with time, it gets easier. I don’t know who “they” are, but that’s a bunch of crap.
See Thanksgiving was her holiday. The one she really took pride in. The one that really and truly brought the whole family together. Where cousins got together and laughed and played. Where aunts commiserated over coffee and tea. Where football stayed permanently on the television, and no one even remotely thought of turning the channel.
The holidays are hard, especially when you miss loved ones who are no longer here to celebrate. I miss my grandma so much, and I cry. I cry tears of remembrance, I cry tears of love. I cry because I wish I got to hug her one more time. And have her hold me and tell me everything will be alright.
So over this holiday season, hug your family a little tighter. Hug and really mean it. Because you don’t know what’s going to happen. Although that in its essence, is what is beautiful about life; the unknown and living life to its fullest. But people come and go.
So hug your loved ones. Tight.
And count yourself blessed.
Beautiful. I feel both sad and happy at the same time – sad for your loss but happy that I can spend time with my family this year.
I lost all 4 of my grandparents all within the same year. It’s not something I ever talk about to anyone, not even my close family. In fact, I hope they don’t find me saying this here… I miss all of them dearly but never came to accepting their passing. I never shed a tear and never had second thoughts about them being gone. Sometimes I feel like I’m a black hole with no feelings… I mean who wouldn’t miss all of their grandparents gone in the same year? Nuts! I have a feeling I’m just suppressing my emotions and one day it’ll all come out. When? I’m not sure. But when that day comes, it’ll be the worst day of my life.
I’m so sorry that you lost all of your grandparents within the same year; that truly must have been difficult.
And you are not a black hole w/out feelings! Everyone deals with grief differently. There is no right or wrong way to deal with a relative’s passing. We all deal with our emotions in ways that make sense for us, and there is nothing wrong with that.
Thank you.
I still feel guilty for not communicating more with my grandparents on my dad’s side before they died. They were such a huge part of my upbringing. It’s been a long time since they are both gone, but I still think about them all the time! Hugs!
Grandparents are special, that’s for sure. It’s harder around the holidays when they aren’t here, you know?
Don’t feel guilty, Tonya. They knew that you loved them, believe me. Grandmas and Grandpas have a sixth sense about these things 🙂
I’m so sorry to hear about your grandma. But you’re right, we have to enjoy moments with our loved ones when we can. You never know what a new day could bring or if any given day could be our last. Depressing, but true.
Thanks. You are right; we have to enjoy the moments w/loved ones when we can.
Thanks for sharing.
I did hug my mother tighter this year. It’s been a tough year for her and I realize that appreciate her all the more when I see her going through these health struggles.
Sorry to hear that your mother is having some health issues. I hope she gets better and that you guys have a wonderful holiday season.